May /July Yearly goals update.

Accidentally wrote over this because I thought this was the copy paste into another thing but it wasn't. so FUCK.


Cultivate new skills
-Update. Working on getting better at the skillset I already have. Once we move, will consider making whips/ 

Save $500 this year. 
Done

Church. 

be closer to God.

STILL Praying a lot.

April

I need to start reading my Bible again. I think about it regularly as I'm falling asleep, and I never pick it up the next morning.
May
Having personal conversations with my husband on a regular basis. 


Read 25 books.  (2 a month, +1)

Jan

1) the banished of Muirwood

2) Holmes-Dracula file

3) the thief

Feb

4) Pendragon book 1
5) Pendragon book 2
6) Pendragon book 3
7) Pendragon book 4
8) CRO Marketing book
9) Jurassic Park
10) Write a novel book

11) The Queen of Attolia

12) The King of Attolia
13) Conspiracy of Kings
14) Pendragon book 5 Black Water
15) Ender's Game

Make a list of books I want to own. 

Jan - list 10 books I'd like to own

1) the phantom tollbooth

2) the BGF (big friendly giant)

3) howl's moving castle
4) 2nd Wolfbreed book

Buy 12 new books (and read them)

January books bought+ 10     (Full set of 10 Pendragon books)
+ 3       The Thief trilogy. 

 +1        Ender's Game

+ 1        The Holmes-Dracula File
15

February new books

(Goodreads) notes on love.... Marriage. By William Benitez 

A conspiracy of kings (book 4, the thief)

(Goodreads) CRO marketing and advertising book
(Goodreads) Sonic wind: John Paul Stapp

(Goodreads) Proof of Angels (Christian book)
(Goodreads) All that we touch (mystery book)
(Goodreads) Still Restless (Christian book)
7 (22)

April
chesh sent a sell what you make book

(Goodreads) Claustrophobia scary stories

Make 12 sales on Etsy. (Online)

Jan, 30 total listings in my etsy store.

1) red/brown flogger pair, to Canada! 

2) rainbow segmented flogger, to UK!
Feb, 40 total listings in my etsy store

3) Multicolor flogger and phoenix tail flogger
4) Tan and Green flogger pair
April , 70 total listings before wingnut event. Now down to 56 listings

5) gray flogger with dark red tips

6) olive wood handle flogger to Denmark 
May, 67 listings after vendor event
Made 4 sales at CoM event, no etsy sales.
June
7) Flogger with Red Rose Falls 
July, 55 listings after vendor event, now up to 69
8) Pair of spoons to CA
9) Clearance Flogger to CA
10) Tan leather bat to Oklahoma


Spend 3 days a week in the garage, working. Or painting. Or leatherworking. Or putting stuff on etsy. 

Make my business an actual job.

January, work on a schedule. Begin at 11, end by 6 pm. 

Feb
forced vacation in AL, now to get back on schedule!

April

I am now on a weekly schedule, and I wake up at 8 every day and try to get to bed by 11 at night. 4 days a week are garage work, 1 leatherwork, 1 cleaning, and 1 rest day.
May
Not in the garage as much as my schedule dictates, have been focusing on leatherwork more. Need to get back in the garage and finish my punishment sticks and paddles!
July
What schedule? But i am working my butt off making toys, vending, and getting my listings onto etsy.


Make something beautiful (x 12)

Olive handle flogger

Caramel Bocote flogger
Cheerwine themed paddle flogger

Make home a place I want to be.

If I don't need/use/want it, throw it out!

Jan- ideas include

Organize my leather room

Make a small coffee table / bookshelf for reading and drinking tea

Find a space and make a comfy reading nook.
Feb
buy some coconut chai tea

Stop apologizing

Be me. Stand up for myself. Be spontaneous. Be creative.

Maintenance/to do (because I multitask that shit)

Today

Maintenance
Post writings to fetlife?
game plan for this weekend?
Possible husband help in getting it done?
Motivation and lack thereof
Schedule following and lack thereof. 



To Do
Laundry: blankets, socks
Mail Packages to Bridgette and Sam
(Finish Sam's necklace!)
Clean out the car
Pack inventory for CoM
Pack overnight bags just in case


Saturday

To Do
Move shop to vacation mode.
Pack car

After
Maintenance
Lily Visit?
Valarie Visit?
Visit parents/grandparents/beckie's kids? (and presents!) AND we have to stop by woodworking shop

And for Luke

Worst day to be a girl.

Found not only a snake in my garden, but a roach in my bathroom. 

Ugh. 

Snake after long searching was a brown snake and not poisonous. 

Roach was dead. And touched my sock!!!!

Which is why I am now still awake. Again. 

5/21/16 story. Fiction. Short story.

The fight had reached a crescendo. 

"Hit me!" She screamed into his face, full of anger and a desperation he didn't understand. 

"Why?" He looked in her eyes, confused, but determined in his point. 

She took the papers he had been holding and threw them up in the air over her head. They fell around her like leaves. 

He stood up, and she stepped one step back to give him room but didn't back down steeling herself and expecting a blow. He took her hands in his and asked her again. Why do you want me to hit you?

"Be... Because that's how it works. I disagree, and we fight until... It's better this way. You have to do it, you have to hit me, aren't you mad at me?" 

"Darling I'm furious with you." 

She sank to her knees, but he didn't let go of her hands. Tears were starting to mark a trail down her cheeks. "Then why don't you hit me?"

"I'm angry, but I still love you. I would never hurt you like that."

"But it's worse if you let me win, then I'll just regret it later." 

"Because you're wrong?"

"No... Because you'll find another way to make me pay for it." 

"No I won't. We're both adults. If you win, it's because you made a valid point, or it isn't as important to me as it is to you." 

"But... Then I don't know how to fight with you! I'm so angry and... And I'm not sure I'm ready to win an argument yet. It's scary."

"Then I guess we'll paint it red." 

"No!"

"Well, that's a good start. Let's try this again, without raising our voices." 

"I need to pick up these papers first. Do... Do adults take breaks from arguments? I mean, can we?" 

"I hope so, because you are dead sexy when you're crying like that."

"Ooh, you were reading my mind."

Feminism

I realized a lot of my fantasies start with a punishment. I made a mistake, that caused my now suffering and pain, I deserve the thing happening to me. Now, I don't really believe that I deserve to be brutally anally raped for leaving hair in the shower or overcooking the meatloaf, and it's a play turn on for me because I enjoy the idea of consensual nonconsent and that is a good way, in my mind, to start a scene- to make up some reason for me to be "punished" aka, rough or painful sex.

But then, I started noticing that this is how every porn starts. Now listen, because this is important. Porn starts with a woman making a mistake, and she is punished (she "deserves it") with sex. I see a lot of women talking about rape culture and how people are always saying that if a woman gets raped she must have caused it in some way, and that woman have to watch what they do, etc... And I didn't see that in my daily life, so I didn't see that it made any sense. Until porn.  Now, men watch a lot of porn. Women, ehh, usually not so much. And there hasn't been a whole lot of writing about this, at least I haven't seen any. But think about this. My typical rape fantasy and the typical male porn start the same way. 

Men are being spoon fed that if a woman gives you an opening, or you can find an excuse, it's ok to pressure or manipulate her to have sex.   

Just once I'd like to see a porn where she says, no, not my ass... Yet. And he says ok and they go back to doggy style for a bit and then she says ooooooh yeah ok put it in my ass. 

Or

Why, what did I do? I'm sorry!    Nothing, it's not your fault, you were just unlucky today.  Ensuing rape scene.

Birthday TShirt

Five toys a week maintenance standing order thing

Stuff to do while Relly is gone. List

Now it doesn't matter if you lose Internet. So stop worrying.

My shitty little birthday wishlist

Birthda things that I would like

Coconut chai tea

https://www.zhenas.com/coconut-black-chai-tea-loose-leaf-jar-799.html

One of those metal mesh things that fit in a Cup and you pour tea leaves into.

Sperry socks. Super soft ones.

Music

Just realized as I'm listening to pandora that I can't tell the difference between Simple Man by Shinedown and my husband singing it. 

It came on and I almost jumped out of my skin because I thought it was my Master's voice. 

Different Types of Saws. Research homepage

http://www.ebay.com/gds/What-are-the-Different-Types-of-Saws-/10000000177627494/g.html
Has a huge list of both hand and power saws. Looks like a good resource

http://dealnews.com/features/Put-Power-in-Your-Saw-Strokes-4-Types-of-Power-Saws-for-the-Home/532080.html
Covers 5. circular saw, jigsaw, reciprocating saw, and tabletop saws, miter and table saw

http://www.wonkeedonkeetools.co.uk/handsaws/what-are-the-different-types-of-saw/
Covers a lot of handsaws, but has pictures and explanations and looks like a lot of other resource links on the side as well. Could probably find info on power tools.

http://www.diy.com/help-advice/power-saws-buying-guide/CC_npcart_400231.art
looks like really helpful chart about which types of saw can handle which types of cut. Which is important info!

http://boingboing.net/2014/12/03/an-introduction-to-hand-saws.html
more hand saw descriptions. includes  japanese saws which are good for detail work and ease of cutting.

http://www.toolcobber.com.au/power-tools/sawing/
different types of sawing power tools. 

Maintenance

Pay bills 

Grocery shopping

Discuss budget for the month

Discuss schedule and meal planning things

Discuss wife production etc with schedule 

Relly

Cancel card and get new one

Schedule visit with realtor 

2 more Facebook blurbs?

Study today "How to sell what you make" book

While reading the book loaned to me, I came across a section in a very long chapter that clicked for me. It's not that the rest of the book didn't make sense, it's just that it feels like a lot of this information doesn't apply to me. This book seems to be written for a crafter who makes a LOT of things in a short time.


Anyway, it moves on to salesmanship, and lists some suggestions/techniques to "catch" a sale.
This information really resounds with me, because it is not something I do naturally. It is something I will have to practice, and really work on.

- Make eye contact and invite the person into your booth/space.
- Ask open-ended questions and listen sincerely. Answer questions.  Instead of saying "do you like this?" ask, "What do you like about this?" "What are you looking for?"
- Demonstrate. Encourage the buyer to touch the items.

Human communication takes place in these four zones:
Public (12 ft +)
Social-Consultative (4 - 12 ft)
Personal (18 inches - 4 ft)
Intimate (9 - 18 inches)

The closer a person moves to you, the move interested they are, and therefore the more willing they are to engage in a business transaction.  Moving into a person's space can be done in a charismatic fashion and bring them to the mindset of purchase, but done incorrectly it can spook the person and ruin the deal, making them uncomfortable with you (and your products).

Keep your booth open and uncluttered.
A counter between you and your customer adds distance between you and can be a barrier to a sale, giving an uninterested customer a "quick getaway"