The Girls

Candy needs gentle, asking commands and lots of verbal praise, rubbing. Can do without hits or stuff.

Emily needs physical, constant demands, high expectations, low tolerance for failure, constant dependability. Likes:Rough sex, hits, breath play, being pushed to her physical limits. Dislikes: Pink, burns, showing emotion, literally impossible expectations, and anal(without foreplay).

Sydney needs to be held, to reason with, to ask lots of questions. Likes to design stories, scenes, bondage devices, and draw naked girls. Has always wanted to pose as a model for her own drawings. Dislikes: Feeling awkward or stupid. open-ended tasks.

Danny needs acceptance for inner turmoil, possibly to write out inner thoughts. To be able to talk back but at the end of the day know who is really in charge. Likes bondage porn, others in pain. Dislikes: being naked in front of mirrors, feminine humiliation.

Lauren needs a quiet environment. Doesn't mind being dominated. Likes: Coffee Dislikes: Gum, loud noise.

Vicki needs at least some control. She lies doing make-up, hair, eye brows. Wants to look her best. Dislikes : being unimportant, ill thought of.

Gin likes rough sex. Playful wrestle-y handful of a girl w/ a big attitude. "doesn't do" bondage.

Blink needs the lights on. Likes: To talk and make people laugh, to play jokes on people. Dislikes: Being helpless.

Phiar needs someone with a bullwhip to take her down a notch (JK lol) She needs excitement, a challenge. Dislikes giving up control. Likes to command a hard-on that can't be turned down.
-SusyB

Susy likes loud music, midnight snacks, being useful, playing, roughhousing, wrestling in a nice way, cuddling, ice cream, being told she's a good girl, earning treats. Can't handle anal. Sometimes likes to not be bossed, and likes to pretend she's in charge.

Instead of Pain

I want to be totally helpless from You. I need it. I want You to tie me down and take out every frustration You've ever had on me. Call me slut, whore, bitch, stupid fucking cunt, and tell me that I can't do anything about it because I'm tied down so tight even Houdini couldn't get out. Beat me, and tell me that I don't have a choice, I have to take whatever You do to me. Tell me I deserve it. Tell me that I should have listened the first time, and not the second time You told me to come here, or sit down, or stay. This is what I get and You've already given me a chance to apologize, so no, I don't get any mercy. This is Your time now; Your time to do to me the very thing I've deserved since the day we met. What I've been earning since the day we met. "Oh and in case this is too much, or I do anything you can't handle.... Well, that's just too damn bad, because your stupid little safeword won't save you now." (But really You'd just say that to turn me on.) And then beat me. With the paddle. Until I cry. And laugh at me, and hit the same place again to make me yell out. Put something up my ass, hard, as far as it can go, to hear me yell louder. Torture me until I'm too hoarse to scream and then find something worse than anything You've done yet, so that I don't have any choice but to try to scream. You'll love every second of my struggling, because it's pathetic and weak and useless, and I need You to tell me so. Laugh at me, and mock me. Hurt me until I never want to be hurt again. Break me completely. I would hate every second of it, but love it, and love You so much more than I can ever say.

I want to hurt. Right Now. This very minute, being 2:19 am. and I'm so tired.

I broke rule two, but not rule one, and I love You, Master Kyle.

Punishments

The problem with masochists is that it is very hard to find a suitable punishment. Anything my Master would use to punish me, I would most likely also enjoy. Of course I understand the difference between punishment and enjoyment, but considering that when I'm really enjoying something, I like to be told the pain is because I've done something wrong, it's understandable that Master would prefer a difference type of punishment.
So.... I'm jumping the cock, so to speak, and going to come up with a few of my own, even though it's kind of hard for me to admit a good way to punish.
In order from most to least vile.
Least Favorite Positions:

• Five
• Four
• Submit

Least Favorite Impact Toys:

• Paddle
• Rubber Band
• Riding Crop

Least Favorite Non-Contact Punishment:

• Isolation
• Being Ignored
• Folding Laundry

Other Ideas:

• Cold Water
• Ass Plug while fulfilling normal duties
• Anal, not sex, just the initial penetration
• Tied Down, Isolation

To My Mother X-Posted

I am a submissive. This means I listen to my husband better than you do to yours. This means that I recognize that I am nothing when I am without my husband, but I am beautiful when I am with him. you run my father's life and make him completely miserable. Because of you, I was afraid to get married, to love. I never wanted to hurt someone the way you hurt my father, every day. I am not a freak, I am a loving wife is committed to being everything her husband could ever want in a woman. I like pain. I do not like being abused. I know what I want and enter into it willingly. If anything is ever more than I can handle, I have a safeword, and my husband will be at my side, holding me close and comforting me. He keeps me in control of and safe from myself.
you may think that I'm a freak, but I'm happier than you've been in years, and you're wrong.

My Rules

these were put together several months before this, and posted on july 11 2010 on another site.

1. I will not cut.
2. My Husband will be informed of my desire to cut as it occurs or increases.
3. I will take care of my body with proper hygiene, eating habits, and will also wear attractive clothing and make-up for my Husband.
4. I will use the title "Sir" appropriately when speaking to my Husband, but will replace "Sir" with "Baby" when in public.
5. I will show the proper respect to myself and my body in my words and actions. I am my Master's property and do not have the right to speak badly of something He treasures.
6. I will show the proper respect and deference to my Husband; He is my Master and deserves the best I have to offer.
7. I will walk with confidence in the knowledge that my Master loves me. I will not keep my head down, I will show pride in being His possession, especially when in public.
8. I will not hold back my feelings, emotions, or voice during sex or sexual play unless otherwise directed by my Husband.
9. I will use my safe word, stairwell, the return word being ladderwell, when I have need to.
10. While wearing my collar, I will obey my Husband's commands as if each were my own thoughts.


the exact phrasing has still not been completely agreed upon, but the point is usually that I know the general idea, anyhow.

To my Master X-Posted

I wake up as You are pushing a gag into my mouth. My arms don't respond to reach up and stop You. Even if they would have, Your hand is on the back of my head, forcing it into my mouth. I try again to pull my arms away, still half asleep, not understanding what is going on, beginning to panic. You lean forward, and as soon as I recognize You, I relax. My fears are gone, but I'm still drowsy and confused. "I'm just using My property, babe. You don't even have to pay any attention." Your words confuse me, but the sound of Your voice is also calming. I am Yours and that will never change. I am tied naked, arms spread, on my stomach, bending over the bed, with my knees on the floor. I'm not even really needed. All I am is property, at least in this moment. My mind opinions and who I am are not important. What is important is that I am serving, pleasing You, my Master. A girl can get lost in that. As You take me, I relax and let myself go. I am only there to be used, and this completes me.