Monday, April 2, 2018

Depression and Watching TV

For me, watching tv is like depression. 

If I’m not careful, I will sit for hours, or days, and accomplish nothing. When I “watch tv” I am actively “watching tv” and doing nothing else. Some people try to have conversations while they tv, and that’s fine for them. But personally, all I can accomplish is sitting and doing nothing, with quick energy filled bouts of trying to meet my needs during the commercials. Usually I can get to the bathroom, and grab something to drink, but there is barely enough time for that, and maybe snagging a not at all healthy snack, without trying to weigh in actual responsibilities, like the dogs’ needs, or the laundry, or heaven forbid an actual shower. 

So I try to save watching tv for rare treats. Because things pile up around me like old towels, and I sink, and by the time I finish that season (because who watches 1 episode anymore) I’m so overwhelmed I want to crawl into bed and watch Netflix on my phone... 

but life and chores and adventure are waiting, if I can only finish this laundry, vacuum, take a shower, clean out the fridge, wash the dishes, scoop the rabbit, feed the dogs, update my Etsy shop, mop, make dinner, make toys, and find some event to sell my wares. Oh and I’ve finished taxes but now I have to print them and send them to “The IRS” 

Fuuuuck