Glow in the dark stars

It's completely dark.
I think the most beautiful thing is being able to have a screaming argument with my husband and in the middle of all the hurtful words between us, pause and say I love you without guilt or manipulation, but with the intent of reassuring each other that it's just an argument and not the end of the world, that at the end of the day we still mean everything to each other and want to make sure they know it. That's the most beautiful thing.
The worst thing is knowing the other person so deeply and intimately that you know their deepest insecurities and realizing how badly you've hurt them right after you purposely say something out of spite and fear and anger. The moment when you see the pain and hurt on the face of the person you love more than anything else in the world, that is the worst thing.

Having both of those in one argument is very rare, but it does happen. And sometimes, after, there is Taco Bell, and then sex. Really really good sex.
And holding hands in the dark looking at the glow in the dark stars on the ceiling.

Tuesday status update

Tuesday:
Washed dishes by hand
Took pictures and uploaded 4 item listings to etsy
Typed 2 days of world recipes - ready to print
Read the book, 100 Cupboards
Changed sheets
Played NES with spouse for several hours. Had so much fun playing the Mario game with pipes
Took a very short nap

Plans:
Today
Make chocolate chip pancakes
Other kitchen things. Kale? Cabbage? Fun?
Call dad for his birthday
Text Sam about visiting
Chemistry homework

Thursday
Run to gamestop
Run to fresh market
Visit dad for birthday


Comments:
Being given orders, even "go away" has been very helpful to me emotionally. I really appreciate it, it's given me a bit of focus.
Also awesome. Playing nes together. Thank you.

Monday's status update

accomplished:
Organized kitchen cooking cart shelves
Typed and printed 2 sets of recipes
Took inventory of items on Etsy that need pictures taken/ descriptions written
Washed clothes
Folded towels
Texted mom and Sam about visit. No response.
Walked dogs AM, no issue
Read some of my communication book. P 93
Loaded dw

Plans for tomorrow
Take pictures of PWL items for Etsy
Upload pictures
Wash thermos coffee cups by hand
Make kale
Type more recipes

Comments:
Wednesday, essay due
Wednesday, chemistry homework due
Wednesday, call dad, happy birthday
Wrists hurt today (wrists not thumb) from pushing a little too hard (moved some heavy stuff, did lots of typing) but overall better with as needed brace use
Thursday, visit parents. Present! Gift card + red velvet cupcakes + Sam care package we never mailed
Probably going to take a nap tomorrow (Tuesday) I'm pretty tired and will do less with my wrists while napping.
Matt has made popcorn 3 days in a row, after the sun has come up. It's annoying as fuck.

Ps the sex was really good Sunday. Really good. Loved the mitts, and the pain play before, being held down and helpless for the "torture" and the torture. And the sex. It was deep and thorough and delightful.  Thanks again.

June business post

will update with items

SELF
Income from individual sales $570
Income from business transaction with barking leather $560 (items sold at half price)

Don't forget event fee, ticket to attend, hotel cost.

Sunday status report

Today:
Talked about issue with wrists, possible causes and solutions.
Decided to wear brace as needed instead of 24/7. This helped a lot.
Printed recipes for Monday
All clothes ready for school Monday
Discussed visiting parents.
Had sex! Great sex. Feel much much better.
He brought me mcdonalds hot cakes and they were awesome. I ate em all.

Monday:
Plan to
Do laundry
Type and print recipes for tues+Wednesday
Contact parents and brother about possibly visiting on Thursday
Finish painting bugbears.

End of week status report

What have we done all week?

Wednesday, I took a very long nap.

Thursday, we went grocery shopping and played video games

Friday, we bought milk,
rescued a yorkie and returned it to its owners,
I made some Thai tea.

Saturday, we went to the grocery store for ingredients for potted meat sandwiches, cereal, and kale.
 We played lego world and defeated (and obtained) a gold dragon.
School clothes have been washed for next week.


Upcoming plans:

Chemistry homework due Sunday

Father's birthday on Wednesday

Lots of laundry
pictures of toys for etsy shop (if able)
lots of reading (if able)


Other Notes
Need a maintenance to discuss important thing
- I can't masturbate. I need sex/play.
wrist still hurts, maybe the brace is making it worse?
How can I contribute to the household with my wrist injury?
- I feel absolutely useless
- i hurt. a lot.
-is it ever going to get better?

tuesday status report

On Tuesday:
Folded lots of clothes and put them away
Folded and put away towels
Walked dogs AM NN
Got recipes printed on notecards YAY

Today I plan to:
Wash and Fold some more laundry
Unload dishwasher and wipe down kitchen
Package shipped YAY
Take a nap
Make a grocery list

Comments:
Wrist and hand still hurting, aches a lot

Monday status update

Today I:
Did lots of laundry
Organized dresser and bedroom
Put up glow stars and planets
Made some food (asparagus)
Walked dogs AM NN
Packaged etsy item to ship
Sorted a lot of mail

Tomorrow I plan to:
Fold and put away laundry
Load dishwasher and clean up kitchen
Paint some Minifigures?
Continue cleaning bedroom
Plan out school schedule and homework stuff
Recipes on index cards?

Comments:
Need you to ship package for me and save receipt before school
Need logged in to computer on upstairs pc