Down. now. Like you're holding someone else up, keeping them strong. the hard way. on knees, bending forward, pushing their back. no, don't lift your arm above the ground for leverage! do the work, push. Wrists don't leave the ground. Do you feel it? does it hurt? no? stay. 5 minutes. The time passes, and I begin to shake. Not yet? 10 more minutes then. I'm in agony, but I will do what has to be done for my Master. I'm reminded of the statue, pushing up the flag. I feel like I'm holding a wide pole up, but not allowed to push up, just able to keep it from falling over.
a position, but i don't remember what he called it, in my dream.
had K & M . Which combines pain and discipline for me.
also in the dream there was a free food gathering in a dollar tree, and there were masks, gorgeous, furry, looked a red/orange cat mask with ears... and a gray cat mask, but they were a full cover. they were soft too and furry, but with the fur feel, not like a stuffed animal material. and they would have been a dollar! it's too bad it was a dream, cuz I would have been all over that shit :)
i loved the feeling of being absolutely out of control and being completely and totally dominated.
